Burnout is something that I’ve heard a lot of people talking about over the last year or so, I’ve lost count of the number of YouTube videos I’ve watched and blog posts that I’ve read from people experiencing ‘burnout’.
I never truly understood what burnout was until I burnt out.
I’ve felt so mentally exhausted lately for so many different reasons and the more mentally exhausted I became the harder I found it to write and create things and the longer I went without writing and creating the harder it became to write and create and it all turned into this vicious circle that is almost impossible to break but when your entire livelihood rests on your creativity and the things you create you have no choice but to break that circle and that in itself is mentally exhausting.
I’ve been putting so much pressure on myself to start writing for my blog again and I don’t think I was really helping myself by doing that. Every time I’d sit down at my computer or pull one of my notebooks out and tell myself that I was going to write something for my blog the words just wouldn’t come out and the harder I tried the worse it became until I almost felt a physical pain from my inability to create.
You’re probably wondering why I’m telling you all of this though aren’t you, dear reader? I’m telling you because it’s 21:21 on Monday 1st October 2018 and I wanted to write something, anything, just to be creative and just to put something out there and hopefully clear my pipes a little bit and I thought after a long day of tearing pages out of notebooks and throwing them into the recycling and typing things and deleting them the best way to start writing again was to just be honest and tell you all what is going on in my head at the moment. Maybe someone can relate, who knows?
I have a lot of exciting things that I want to tell you all about in the coming days and weeks because despite my burnout I’m a part of some truly incredible projects at the moment and I’m loving every minute of them I really am. I know that sounds like a complete contradiction to my burnout but to be completely honest the projects have been the only thing really keeping me sane lately and keeping my mind ticking over and I suppose stopping me from going full apocalyptic burnout.
I’ve had a lovely relaxing weekend away from everything, had some much needed ‘me time’ as well as lovely quality time with my family. I’m feeling completely refreshed and rejuvenated and because of that I was determined to sit down and write something for you all today. I love that it’s 1st October and we’re now well and truly into autumn, it’ll soon be Halloween and there is just so many other wonderfully exciting things happening this month that I’m sure I’ll tell you all about in due course.
I hope that everything is well with you all and that your October has started off lovely and continues to be so!